2010 it is now. A new year, new school, new friends and of course new everything. School has started and it has already been one week. One week gone by so fast that things started changing in a blink of an eye. Everything doesn't seems like it is in 2009. A great example would be my secondary friends. What happen to most of them? I don't know. Some I know has started schooling just like me too, but what happen to the others? Why isn't there any news at all? No news, no phonecalls, no messages, no nothing. Why? Come on guys, what happen to the "kecorable" us in secondary school times? Doesn't mean we can't contact each other eversince we got on our separated ways in ite right? I heard that most of you guys are not schooling, even worst decide to drop out. Gosh, why is this happening? Just when I was watching the videos of us during secondary school times, I started laughing. Then, I realise that I really miss you guys so much. Really... Will we ever gonna meet again? Will we ever gonna go out together like we used to in secondary moments? Are we ever gonna be that HAVOCK when we're together outside? Or are we just gonna forget one another after getting to know new friends? Come on 4/9, think... Don't ruin our great memories. I love you guys, each and everyone of you equally. And I'll definitely try my best just to plan some outings together although I know some of you can't make it. And also make you guys realise that we are still classmates although we know we've gone our separated ways.

To bestie ;
Hope you're reading this. I'm glad you went to Reena's blog and accidentally read that post. Yet I'm here to apologise that I didn't know what was going on in your life since you've told me. Why didn't you tell me earlier? I got so carried away that I went pissed off with you. At first, you went swearing at me, scolding me for no reasons and that made me feel off. Then, you didn't talk to me that much in school. You were just so different. When it was time to go home, you didn't wanna wait for the bus with me, you took your stuff and you went off telling me you were lazy to wait for the bus. After all those stuff you did to me in one day, made me go home and think what has happened to you? What has gotten into you lately that made you do that? You never once did that to me, but then all of sudden this? Then when I was home, I kept thinking... How am I gonna face you the next day? Are you gonna do all that to me again? I mean like, I have feelings too you know? I don't mind all this but when things get overboard or maybe messed up, I will tend to hate it. I told Reena about this, I shared all this with her cause there's no one else to sit and hear except for her. I was hoping you would realise your own mistakes but it took you awhile. After you've read Reena's blog, you texted me.. Telling me you wanna talk things out nicely. And we did. Then the following morning, you told me what happened. What happen that made you got too carried away. Sorry if I didn't understand it in the first place. And sorry if I were to add on more problems to you. But you must remember too bestie, I have feelings too. I did alot for you, so please... Even if you decide to go on your path one day, don't ever forget me.

To Granny;
Just to let everything out granny. I'm not trying to say anything but.. I'm just curious, why is it always me granny? Why am I always the one that you scold? Why am I the one that always make you angry? Why am I always the one that cause problem to you? This morning, adek told me that you scolded me behind my back yesterday. Yesterday I went to your house, my intention was to just take the lauk and adek's bag then went off cause I'm gonna go out after that. Told you about it and your face was a lil' pissed, I don't know why? Then the next day, mum came to me and scolded me for making granny angry. That made me a lil' confuse. Then mum told me to ask adek what did granny said to her about me. Adek told me that nenek say something like
"What the hell. What kind of grand daughter I have. Come here just to take money from us."
Then she stop. I was pissed, really. This isn't the first time she does this. Last time you called me names nek, you called me "kepale batu". Why? Why nek? You made me cry, and it hurts you know nek? I just don't get it why am i always the one that got it from you? What about abang? Have you ever talked behind his back like what you did to me too? I never heard anything about it before. Does this means that you love abang more than me? Even if you do, you don't have to talk behind my back nek. How i wish i could tell you how i feel. How i wish you would know how i feel. Eventhough you're angry, do you have to call me names? Nek, do you know that I love you? I love you till I wished that you were my mum last time. I love you till I kept thinking what if you have passed away? Who's there to love me more, like last time.. When I was small, you are the one who took care of me. Why do you hate me so much? I don't even know if you hate me or not but you don't have to do all this. It does hurt to be a grown up teenager. Unnecessary things always stops by. When can all this stop? The same things keep happening to me, only that it comes and go. Please nek, if only I could read your mind... And just know what is it that you want from me just to make you happy. Cause I realise, most of the time its my brother that makes you smile.