Tuesday, 17 April, 2007.

Well, maybe my life didn't turn out that good afterall.
Realised that my friends are full of shits too.
Studies? Getting worst. Trying very hard to prove to everyone that I can improve on my studies.
But i guess i was wrong, i've looked down on myself.
I keep doing the opposite stuffs, WHY!?
Everytime i wonder why whenever i'm at home, i will tend to keep quiet and concerntrate on the stuffs that i'm doing.
But why can't i do all that in school.
Why?
Whenever i step in school, i will feel like i'm doing all the stuffs right.
But no, i totally did the opposite of that.
I skipped classes. I didn't pay attention. I didn't do my homework. I answer teacher whenever they scold me.
Why did i do all that?
Hais, i'm so upset about myself.
I wanna change ! Change to the better !
I can't ask people for help, cause its my own personality.
Maybe all i should do is to think twice before i do.
Yeah, i guess the only way is to just improve slowly.
I'll try my very best for myself.
And the worst part is EXAMS are coming.
In 2 weeks time, or maybe 1?
That's fast, and i don't even understand... oh no.. I don't even know which chapter am i in maths now.
ARGH! Farhanah! Buck up! Gosh.
I'm so weak in maths and yet i'm still the type which daydreams in school.
And i don't even bother to bring back my homework.
What the hell?
Nvm, its okay.
Maybe i meant to be like this already.
Hais...